I’ve been feeling so ugly and fat lately. And now that its getting nicer out and I can’t use my coat as an excuse to cover myself up doesn’t help either. And like I tried to get myself to work out and do something at the beginning if the year and it went well. But then I got caught up with work and school work and I don’t have the time. And I try to eat healthy. I don’t eat burritos every week like I did last semester. I eat in the dining halls more which is good compared to eating at the fast food places on and near campus. But I feel so fat. Like yeah I know I am and I always have been. But even more so. And it makes me hate myself. And I’m 21 now and no cute people are going to buy me drinks at the bars because I’m fat and ugly and awkward.